hello
hi simula ng dumating aq sa pinas nung june 3 hanggang ngaun d ko pa nararamdamn ang saya!! ung saya na tlgang panghabang buhay mahirap pala... pag nawala ka sa mga taong mahal mo para bang pagbalik mo di kna kilala may sarili na silang mundo may kanya kanyang mahal at lahat sila iwas sayo... kaya e2 lagi nalng aq nasa kwarto... gusto ko man iapasyal ang sarili ko sa lugar kong saan may naalala ako nasasaktan din aq sapagkat ung taong nakasama ko sa lugar na gusto kong puntahan ay ang taong kinukuwaan ko ng lakas at ispirasyon ... xa lang din ang taong sobrang minahal ko,,,e kso wala na din xa sa akin mahirap pala!! mag isa!! now naisip ko na sana nasa singapore nlng aq o kht saan parte ng mundo na pwede ko malibang ang sarili ko... bakit kaya gnun ang buhay ko... wala ng ngamamahal nwalan pa ng mmahalin ... sana dumating ung tym na maramdamn ko ulit ang saya na makapg aalis ng lahat ng lungkot ko .. ko auq na mging mlugkot nagsasawa na ako... pagod na ako mging mlungkot pa... guys tulungan nyo aq....!!!baka anu pa mgawa ko sasarili ko hirap na hirap ang kalooban ko ngaun...
Monday, June 8, 2009
Message for MY one and only love!!!
its been long time since we didnt see each other.... but i still love you.... i repeat i still love you... but how i can continue this feeling of mine... meron kna di ko alm kung paano aq mag sstart ulit na wala ka... wala na aq magagawa dun! all i want to do is to have a distance on you im so happy last june 08, 2009 nyt na nkasama kita... im trying to have a long distance with you... para mbawasan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko at hindi para ipakita na umiiwas aq pero mhirap ... sobrang hirap 2 months na din since nag start akong suyuin ka pero... tingin ko nothing change d ka pa rin mapapa sa akin... but still im waiting as long na mahal pa kita!!! Minsan naluluha nlng aq pag nkikita kita...at nasasabi ko sa isip ko? itong mahal ko ,,, kailanman d na mapapasa akin pa... pero gnito b tlga ang buhay?,, o sadyang tlgang wala ng nagmamahal sa akin... alam ko masaya ka sa kanya tiniis ko na lahat for the sake na bumalik ka sa akin but still xa pa rin ang mahal mo... basta e2 lng masasabi ko minahal kita sa paraang alam ko.. at sa paraang tatak sa puso mo... na ang taong nagmahal sayo na tulad ko.. ay talagang gagong gago sayo!! sana mapansin mo na din ang pagbabago.. ko!! hindi man tayo magkasama ng matagal o baka hindi na tayo magkita pa patawad sa bagay na iyon... tingin ko kc ito ang paraan at ang tanging bagay na magbbigay ng lakas ng loob sa akin para masanay na wala kana sa akin at hindi na aq ang minamahal mo.. sana matanggap ko rin sa sarili ko na minsan ang taong gusto mo pag nawala sayo mahirap na muling ibalik ito lalo na kung wala na xang tiwala sayo.... at baka nga hindi na!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! salamat sa lahat .... marami akong kanta dedicate sayo...
pero no time para mag usap tayo ng maayos at magkasama dahil nararamdamn ko na iba ang gusto mong mkasama pag magkasama tayo... basta ingat ka d ko makakalimutan ang taong tulad mo.. ikaw lng ang minahal ko ng ganito ... sana d ka man bumalik sa akin ... hope na matahimik na ako.. at hindi na makaramdam ng anong sakit auq na magalit ka kaya lahat ng sakit, selos ,galit at iba pa ay aangkinin ko hanggang sa kamatayan ko.. paalam mahal koh!! mag ingat ka!!! ma swerte siya sayo.... wag na wag mo pababayaan ang sarili mo alam ko na mgagalit ka pag nbasa mu ito pero alm ko na naiintindihan mo din ako... masaya aq at nkita kita ulit at nakasama , nakatabi at nakausap eventhough in a short single time... 11 hours!! is now a memories to me 11 hours kasi tayong nagkasama... masaya nko dun... tart mag ingat ko... ha.. auq na iiyak kapa at malulungkot ka gusto ko lagi ka masaya... at sa lahat ,,, ng nangyari salamat tart ko....tingin ko its time for me na tanggapin ang lahat...mahal na mahal kita ................ paalam!! mis u so much!!
" rest in peace is better than to live "
- jonathan
pero no time para mag usap tayo ng maayos at magkasama dahil nararamdamn ko na iba ang gusto mong mkasama pag magkasama tayo... basta ingat ka d ko makakalimutan ang taong tulad mo.. ikaw lng ang minahal ko ng ganito ... sana d ka man bumalik sa akin ... hope na matahimik na ako.. at hindi na makaramdam ng anong sakit auq na magalit ka kaya lahat ng sakit, selos ,galit at iba pa ay aangkinin ko hanggang sa kamatayan ko.. paalam mahal koh!! mag ingat ka!!! ma swerte siya sayo.... wag na wag mo pababayaan ang sarili mo alam ko na mgagalit ka pag nbasa mu ito pero alm ko na naiintindihan mo din ako... masaya aq at nkita kita ulit at nakasama , nakatabi at nakausap eventhough in a short single time... 11 hours!! is now a memories to me 11 hours kasi tayong nagkasama... masaya nko dun... tart mag ingat ko... ha.. auq na iiyak kapa at malulungkot ka gusto ko lagi ka masaya... at sa lahat ,,, ng nangyari salamat tart ko....tingin ko its time for me na tanggapin ang lahat...mahal na mahal kita ................ paalam!! mis u so much!!
" rest in peace is better than to live "
- jonathan
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Life at Singapore
... hello just telling my life here at singapore during my ojt or on the job training...
I was third year student of STI taking a coarse of B.S in Business Administration Major in Management... October 5, 2008 when i receive a call from my agency and school that i am passed the interview for the company member of dairy farm here at Singapore... which is COLD STORAGE it's look like... a SM here at the Philippines a big grocery store one of the leading brand here at Singapore... I was happy on that time... after 1 month ... the agency called me that my flight confirmed already,,, on November 28, 2008... so i say to my self that this is the time for me... to prove to them, that they wrong thinking about me... i will go now to Singapore to have my ojt ... oh" shit it"s a international practicum ... which one of my advantage... to other student,,, thanks god... but during that time... i was little bit happy and lonely,.. happy because after all i am going now to Singapore with the age of 18 years old and my ojt company is a member of one richest brand in the whole world... which is the dairy farm.. i am very happy for that.. but i am thinking for the person who i leave here for more the whole 6 months especially my mom and my tart,.,. so sad to me to let go.. but i have a one word to my tart that i will continue.. because this is for her.. so my flight is already confirmed ... November 28, 2008 8:25am i and my mom and dad arrive on the Philippine airport,,, so this is the times i will depart now to Singapore... i want to hide my tears flow in my face..i never looked back to see my parent i hate leaving them...after an hours... we arrive Singapore... now its begin of all sacrifices... 1st nyt in Singapore so very bad dream all people around is i did not know... what kind of person they are... when i go out to my room and talk one of my dorm mate... i introduce my self... the exchange hands with them... knowing each other then time, days and months passed by i already 1 month in singapore... sacrifices begin you must be humble to every one in my dormitory,, you must good to them ... sometimes i cannot control my self to cry late at night... i miss my mom , my family and my tart... i want to go home now said to my self .... i pick up my phone on my pocket then i make an sms to my mom... that i want to go home.. after a minute my mom called me... then the first minute i answered the phone call from my mom.. my tears run down to my eyes,,, i have nothing to say i always cry my mom asking me why i am cry /... i even don't know how to reply my mom... i remember only one word i say ... " i miss you mom.. i want to go home i don't how i can survive,,.. the i dropped the phone without saying goodbye to my mom.. he called me again... but i didn't answer the phone... i fell so very loose hope during that tym ... i don't know how i can survive,... every morning i wake up... i said to my self... now its another morning to passed the sacrifices hell... which i mean the my job not training on my establishment i am a cashier sometimes... i am sales assistance,, sometimes home deliver boy , trolley boy and customer service representative... i don't know... what i fell during that tym i fell not blessed to my training,,, i did not know how to survive,,, so very hard to survive that"s true to tell you... after the work ,,, i say again to my self welcome to my hell dormitory asshole damn it... i want to go home ...... you sacrifices to eat spoiled food and rice just to survive,,, you must know how to budget you allowance,,, you must know how to become independent.,.,..
after a weeks ...,i got my first allowance,.... im so very happy i got my first allowance but i need to save it... how clever the agency is... just think $417.89 singapore dollar how i can survive... but i prove to my save that money will save more if u know how budget it... timed passed by... another task to do ... Ive chosen of my agency to become a captain leader in the dormitory because the captain during tym when im not chosen is already done with his contract.,.. ,,, another task.. for me it is a bad dream...to be a captain and to handle 22 different kind of person i dont know how to take over the task ... ok... i am the new captain now... to tell you honestly... being a captain is more challenging .. in this kind of situation... i need to become neutral to every member i have.,,.. being a captain... is not easy you must maintain the good relationship to the dormitory you must know... how to communicate to each one.. sometimes one member become angry with me but i know lot of them i ignore them i dont care what they fell to me.. im doing my job thats all//...., times passed by again i prove to my self i can be independent now i miss my emotion... even that a lot of hassle problems in the Philippines /// one of that is the break up of my tart... sad to say.. but i need to tell this things that i really affected /// i cannot focus to my job say to my self i want to die... asshole.. damnshit!! but after a days i find my self what is wrong with me... i try to change the whole me.... so i passed again.so very happy to tell that i mood on but i still in love with my tart... but timed passed by no sms , no call from the philippines /.// i ignore it... i can handle my self now... i change my whole life my apperance in and out of chane already lah!! even the way i talk all is change ,... now .after my last day to my establishment is come... im happy i already a survivor !!! i passed all the test i improve more i change my life.. i can stand with my own ... so happy that time i want to say thank you for the person who become part of my life here at singapore my friends ,,,, thanks.. u give a best shot to me... a wonderful memories that i can bring on.. to my daily life... after this times... my life back to normal.. but the moment we shared is last forever that i can i keep wherever i go.. whatever i do... now my sacrifices end but will stay in my heart,,, thanks for my family that always pushing me to finish my contract here they are my inspiration even my tart will not concerned for what happen to me for the past 6 months staying here in singapore... is also my inspiration this victory is for you... now i know how hard the life is... thanks also to almighty god... which always there at my side.. a few and single days more ... to wait .. to go back to my hometown... cheers for me...
I was third year student of STI taking a coarse of B.S in Business Administration Major in Management... October 5, 2008 when i receive a call from my agency and school that i am passed the interview for the company member of dairy farm here at Singapore... which is COLD STORAGE it's look like... a SM here at the Philippines a big grocery store one of the leading brand here at Singapore... I was happy on that time... after 1 month ... the agency called me that my flight confirmed already,,, on November 28, 2008... so i say to my self that this is the time for me... to prove to them, that they wrong thinking about me... i will go now to Singapore to have my ojt ... oh" shit it"s a international practicum ... which one of my advantage... to other student,,, thanks god... but during that time... i was little bit happy and lonely,.. happy because after all i am going now to Singapore with the age of 18 years old and my ojt company is a member of one richest brand in the whole world... which is the dairy farm.. i am very happy for that.. but i am thinking for the person who i leave here for more the whole 6 months especially my mom and my tart,.,. so sad to me to let go.. but i have a one word to my tart that i will continue.. because this is for her.. so my flight is already confirmed ... November 28, 2008 8:25am i and my mom and dad arrive on the Philippine airport,,, so this is the times i will depart now to Singapore... i want to hide my tears flow in my face..i never looked back to see my parent i hate leaving them...after an hours... we arrive Singapore... now its begin of all sacrifices... 1st nyt in Singapore so very bad dream all people around is i did not know... what kind of person they are... when i go out to my room and talk one of my dorm mate... i introduce my self... the exchange hands with them... knowing each other then time, days and months passed by i already 1 month in singapore... sacrifices begin you must be humble to every one in my dormitory,, you must good to them ... sometimes i cannot control my self to cry late at night... i miss my mom , my family and my tart... i want to go home now said to my self .... i pick up my phone on my pocket then i make an sms to my mom... that i want to go home.. after a minute my mom called me... then the first minute i answered the phone call from my mom.. my tears run down to my eyes,,, i have nothing to say i always cry my mom asking me why i am cry /... i even don't know how to reply my mom... i remember only one word i say ... " i miss you mom.. i want to go home i don't how i can survive,,.. the i dropped the phone without saying goodbye to my mom.. he called me again... but i didn't answer the phone... i fell so very loose hope during that tym ... i don't know how i can survive,... every morning i wake up... i said to my self... now its another morning to passed the sacrifices hell... which i mean the my job not training on my establishment i am a cashier sometimes... i am sales assistance,, sometimes home deliver boy , trolley boy and customer service representative... i don't know... what i fell during that tym i fell not blessed to my training,,, i did not know how to survive,,, so very hard to survive that"s true to tell you... after the work ,,, i say again to my self welcome to my hell dormitory asshole damn it... i want to go home ...... you sacrifices to eat spoiled food and rice just to survive,,, you must know how to budget you allowance,,, you must know how to become independent.,.,..
after a weeks ...,i got my first allowance,.... im so very happy i got my first allowance but i need to save it... how clever the agency is... just think $417.89 singapore dollar how i can survive... but i prove to my save that money will save more if u know how budget it... timed passed by... another task to do ... Ive chosen of my agency to become a captain leader in the dormitory because the captain during tym when im not chosen is already done with his contract.,.. ,,, another task.. for me it is a bad dream...to be a captain and to handle 22 different kind of person i dont know how to take over the task ... ok... i am the new captain now... to tell you honestly... being a captain is more challenging .. in this kind of situation... i need to become neutral to every member i have.,,.. being a captain... is not easy you must maintain the good relationship to the dormitory you must know... how to communicate to each one.. sometimes one member become angry with me but i know lot of them i ignore them i dont care what they fell to me.. im doing my job thats all//...., times passed by again i prove to my self i can be independent now i miss my emotion... even that a lot of hassle problems in the Philippines /// one of that is the break up of my tart... sad to say.. but i need to tell this things that i really affected /// i cannot focus to my job say to my self i want to die... asshole.. damnshit!! but after a days i find my self what is wrong with me... i try to change the whole me.... so i passed again.so very happy to tell that i mood on but i still in love with my tart... but timed passed by no sms , no call from the philippines /.// i ignore it... i can handle my self now... i change my whole life my apperance in and out of chane already lah!! even the way i talk all is change ,... now .after my last day to my establishment is come... im happy i already a survivor !!! i passed all the test i improve more i change my life.. i can stand with my own ... so happy that time i want to say thank you for the person who become part of my life here at singapore my friends ,,,, thanks.. u give a best shot to me... a wonderful memories that i can bring on.. to my daily life... after this times... my life back to normal.. but the moment we shared is last forever that i can i keep wherever i go.. whatever i do... now my sacrifices end but will stay in my heart,,, thanks for my family that always pushing me to finish my contract here they are my inspiration even my tart will not concerned for what happen to me for the past 6 months staying here in singapore... is also my inspiration this victory is for you... now i know how hard the life is... thanks also to almighty god... which always there at my side.. a few and single days more ... to wait .. to go back to my hometown... cheers for me...
Friday, May 22, 2009
Hi ... I am Jonathan Warren Del Monte Lumanog pero I am not using my "warren" now hehhe
I am 19 years of age... just call me jay-eL...\
Birthday: June 06, 1989
Location: Philippines
Friendster Account: starstruck_nathan_batch4@yahoo.
Yahoo Messenger Account: starstruck_nathan_batch4@yahoo.com
Blog ID: jonathanlumanog06.blogspot.com
About me:
I am 5'4 to 5'5 in height , with white complextion slim to normal body.. black with brown eyes,, and black hair,,, in short I am SIMPLE GUY>>>>
I am a moody person... some of my friend told me that i am fun to be with,,, sarap kasama, but some of them telling that i am emotional .... which for me it is true,,.. know why?? every person is having a HEART.. right ? no one of us is perfect all of us is only flowing with the way of life or what we call destiny in life... i am guy who's lack of attention .. with whom:?> for family ofcourse,,, pero naiintindihin ko naman ang bagay na iyon kasi alam ko lahat ng bagay ay may dahilan kaya nangyayari iyon... ako din ang tao na kapag nagalit talagang gago sa pinakagago na nakilala mo mahilig ako sa mga bagay na na chachallenge ako .... coz i know it is one way to know how can you survive and handle the situation in your life,.,.. friendly ako sa taong alam ko na totoo sa sarili ayoko ang pretending... wala naman kasi mawawala sayo kung magpakatotoo ka nalang sa sarili mo...mahilig aq mag senti... hehehe lalo na kapag dumating iyong time na may naaalala ako... at mabilis aq masaktan pagdating sa love...masarap ako magmahal at talagang I will do all for the sake of love... totoo iyon... hindi ako mahirap kausapin pagdating sa pangangailangan lalo na sa mag kaibigan... ko basta meron willing ako... d ako iyong tao na mhilig mag share ng probleme depende nalang kong ung taong iyon ay ,,, may part sa buhay ko iilan lng sila siguro... i like the person which is masarap kasama totoo sa sarili at marunong magpahalaga... ako din ung tao na pag nagustuhan ang isang bagay gagawin ko lahat para lng makuwa ito pero nasa tamang paraan... may takot aq sa diyos sabi ng iba.. wala daw masasabi ko sa inyo hindi nyo kasi alm kong ano ang pkiramdam ko ilagay nyo kaya ang sarili mo sa akin... siguro sasabihin nyo na makitid ang utak ko... minsan na din ako nagmahal ginawa ko lahat,,, para sa kanya pero tingin ko binalewala nya na ako... aq din siguro ung tao na mapagkakatiwalaan... marunog kasi ako... magpahalaga sa taong nakikilala ko... maxado ng mahaba... ito ,, maybe in short... I AM SIMPLE GUY...
if uwant to know about me... just text or sms me... or message me in my friendster account...
Thank's
jay-eL
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